Time to move on

So recently I have been thinking to move out of this place I am renting nearby campus (kost-an). Have not surveyed all those kost-an at Permata but I think either by next month or latest by next semester, I will move out.

Perhaps some of you who have known this place I am living (Belida 1) will always wonder why am I so faithful to have lived there for about 3 semesters. The place is pretty much run down it looked like some kind of those house you would see in horror movies. It is also pretty dirty, considering you can find all kind of pests like cockroaches, mosquitoes, ants, lizards, rats, whatever it is you name it, we have it here.

Initially the reason why I stayed there for so long was because I did not have car during first days of semester one and the place is near the campus so I can just walk my way to commute to campus. But now that I have a ride, I guess I can live pretty much anywhere.

But then I got lazy. I was lazy to check out places at Permata and I was lazy too pack up my things to move. A month, two month, a semester, two semesters gone by and I had gotten so used to the place, it kind of start to feel like home (although I still dont really like the place...)

Then it got me thinking, have I been too used and convenient with this place that made me lazy to search for a new better one? I have thought about this over and over again, the place is ugly, never really give me that much of benefits (the price is about the same as those nice places in Permata, moreover the shared bathroom, the electricity, etc) then why have I been staying for so long and faithful?

Maybe it’s because I am afraid to find a new one, a new challenge and environment. Maybe it’s just me that have gotten so comfortable.. and used to this kind of environment.

It’s funny, it feels just like a relationship. I know about this and writing this now because it’s a personal story, it just seems like some situation that I am familiar with.

I have seen some of my friends’ relationships that I know just would not work out but they still hold on to it anyway. There are just to much bickering, too much crying, suffering and tears, it feels like the best way is to end it but they just never break up. And no, they stayed not because if love.

Some just stayed because they are so used of being together that they cannot face the burden of being alone again. They got so comfortable of each other and refuse to find a new and better love, not because they can’t, but they just do not want to.

Face it, there are just some relationships that are not meant to be. It has been hurting and disappointing...making you at loss.

I know that ending it is not a simple and reasonable decision but sometimes, when you know the road leads you to a blocked end, you really need to take a turn and drive away.

And maybe just like me, soon enough you need to find a more reasonable place to live in.