New layout. i think i like this one. its simple. and LOL check my icon ===> awesome.

i actually wanted to start and write everything about a levels, but i think talking about it would just be a pain in the ass so i guess i'll stay quiet.
after the paper i went to ride the bus, it was a long journey. i usually hated long rides but if i'm in trouble or in deep thoughts, i kind of like it. I decided to go bugis, i dont know why but i just feel like it, so i went alone since all my friends have things to do.

oh yeah, i think i'm becoming more antisocial. i dont think i like meeting people already, even if its old friends. i'm just....
ashamed?

i guess.


i think karma may occur to me right now. i'm not too sure.
i actually feel like going to the library and just sit there for a long, long time....
after walking for a while, i decided not to do as i felt like a dumb person so i went to the magazine stand and got myself magazines. (there's GaIn poster, how can i NOT buy?)

then there's this uncle.... we had "conversation" that goes something like this:
i cant really say its a convo since convo involves two or more people talking but if its more of one man talk? what do you call that? preaching?

man:girl, u using the machine?
me: *moves away from ATM machine* oh no..
man: let uncle use *smile* u in school? what grade are you?

so it's the usual brainless conversation, i replied im in JC, just finished a levels and everything

man: wah! JC ar, so smart? must be smart right.
me: no.. *thinks obviously this guy dont know anything about JC*

then he asked my L1r5, then started saying its the same as her daughter, but her daughter chose poly route instead. He told me how heavily involved her daughter is, how she wants to study design, how she goes home at 11, practically almost everything.

i dont blame him, maybe the reason why he keeps talking because i actually responded to him, smiled, asked him things too.
i dont know why, maybe because my mood wasnt that good, and i dont know him anyway so i just nod and respond, besides, he looked familiar.
well, say hello to my new friend. the nameless uncle.

the convo goes on till the bus came.

but THATs not it.

today, after gym-ing i went to return the key to the security guard and again the daughter-father story starts.

man no2: u in school? college?
me: replied almost automatically, yes, in JC, just finished a level.

then he started her daughter just did hers too, and looked stressed. so i just smiled and respond.

haha, i find this funny. what date is it? is it fathers day or something?
maybe what the world needs is not wealth.
but simply for a friend to share your stories to.
you have so much in mind, you want someone to listen to you talking instead of the other way round.

one thing about the security guard strikes me. it seems that he is worried that his daughter is stressed. i felt that maybe the daughter just want to do her best and get her family to a better economic level.

i dont know, i'm at a loss of words now. i have a lot of things in mind.
i'll just pray for the world to be a better place, with more warmth around.

Recently i have been wanting to take care of my body more. I wish to live a healthier life as from now on.

I wish to exercise more, eat healthier, consume vitamins and rest early. Perhaps spending less time on the internet will help too.


now i consume vitamin C and multi-vitamins.


not really on a daily basis, just when i feel i dont eat enough healthy stuff.

i dont know why i start to be like this, but i think i simply consume too much rubbish, stuff like junk food, biscuits and chocolates that is simply =(

so, i want to start anew.

now that i actually know exercising doesnt help much to lose, i realize i should put more emphasize in dieting habits instead.

Perhaps, during late night, when we got really hungry after skipping dinner, i should just eat brown rice and side dish instead of gobbling down packets of biscuits and milk that doesnt satisfy the hunger.

My cousin actually loses 50kg in about a year or less, hopefully i can do some magic and do likewise too. :)

*he bowed! oh my God, i dont think you deserve this!*
well, publicity is a publicity. =(

i posted this in my fandom blog but decide to post this here as well. haiz. i am too frustrated.



come back, park jaebeom. lets fight this together.

You probably have known, the past few days have been devastating for me. Apart from the screwed up exam result, now this. Apparently the world is one scary place.

Before i start, let me enlighten you that this whole issue is NOT just about KPOP. even if this issue comes from unknown country, or Kazahkstan, Ulan Bator, Mongolia, North Korea even Planet Xkhasphya or whatever, I will still be writing the same thing. Please, we are talking about human lives, we are talking about people's feeling, career and passion.

Perhaps you may not know, Korean internet forums/fancafe waddahack you call that, is a big and happening thing in korea. Netizens play a huge role in commenting and giving feedbacks to the artists, up to the point it gets too much too handle. Anti-fans start to blossom, trying to get into celebrities' way. They do every little shameful and low-level things just to express their hatred. There have been cases whereby celebrites and fans committed suicide. What a sick world.

So there was this teenage idol, namely Jay Park aka Park Jaebeom. He was talent-scouted in USA and brought to Korea to be groomed into an awesome performer. So he went, trained, spent 4 years of hard work and finally he got his dream. After a few months releasing second single, after debuting in one year, his boyband got uber-famous.
His group, boyband 2PM, was (or i prefer IS) well-loved by many Korean and international fans.
He brought a lot of laughter to viewers life. Being a witty guy, he did not being too image-conscious as an idol. I may not know him personally, we lived in two different parts of the world, but I think he is a sincere performer.

Until a few days ago, some netizens found out his myspace profile and old comments from 4 YEARS AGO "offending Koreans" (mind you, that comments are only a FEW lines, i have people in my country who bashed our own country IN PUBLIC.)
Yes, he wrote offending things.
But he manned it up and owned up.
He apologized. He didn't act like a scaredy-cat and he owned up that it was his action.
(for all you know, some artists may say useless things like accounts getting hacked or whatnots nonsense. but he didnt. he put his career at stake and begged for forgiveness).

He explained that being a Korean who cannot speak any Korean language at the start of his trainee days was hard. He got culture shock, he was lonely and stressed up. Thus out of a moment of folly, he wrote things like "Korea is gay, i want to go back".
Please, i AM not supporting him just because i like him, but i can sense how he feel.
being an international student, despite my homecountry is SUPER NEAR to the current one I am staying and having a sister with me, i even got a little bit of culture shock. it was hard. life was not easy for me.

So then things got blown out of proportion. instead of forgiving, netizens bashed him and say things like "you should go back to your own country" and such. just by minutes, petition wanting him to kill himself got signed by 3000 people.
Seriously, even as you read this, dont you find this thing RIDICULOUS?
I understand the sense of patriotism, how hurt and how their nation pride is at stake. But people, we err. Human err.
We are not God that does everything perfectly. We forgive, because that what makes us humans.
and seriously.
It is a myspace comment.
Not like he bombed a nation and laughed about it.
In my country, people (terrorists) killed thousands and is still worshipped as "heroes"
cant you see how scary, bloody, disgusting the world is now?

You think the drama ends? No wonder Korean dramas are so dramatic, things just dont end easy.
no.



So Jay left his band. He resigned his position as a leader and went back to the States, to where those netizens wanted him to be.

this is the situation when he left korea just yesterday.
korean fans are torn and ripped apart. wanting him to come back, sending message at Jay's artiste management.



how can the other member act dorky again in front of the cam like this without him?

hwang chansung - jay group mate.


Funny thing is, know what? right after he left, comments about how now he loved Korea, how he is proud of being a Korean had just been discovered. Not too long ago when he went back to US, he gave testimonial at his church, saying how well he's living in Korea and being a nice boy.
(i still remember his favorite bible verse.. hikz... TT_TT )
Too late people, he has resigned.

And now the netizens are shocked, saying things like he should not have done that, should not have acted silly like that. And the person who expose his myspace comment owned up, begging for forgiveness.
WTF.
isnt that what you wanted?

The thing is, i loved the situation turned 180 degrees, netizens being the devil and jay being the victim. holy cow.
i am still hoping this is some coy set up by JYPE (artiste management company like Japan's JE/ Korean SM/YG entertainment - this JYPE is the same company that produced wonder girls), having Jay to shock the netizens and send him back to rest and relax enough, then after that come back to Korea to perform again after some time.

I keep telling myself i will believe that, although it is rather ridiculous, how can a person just leave and come back.


"writing says jaebeom, himnae!" or jaebeom;be strong!
fans stick thousands post-its in front of office.

i think i know how he feels. He probably didnt want to be remembered as a Korean-hater, he didnt want to tarnish his band's image or things like that. rumours spreading is that the company wanted him to leave. :(

funny. Skorea is such a strict, patriotic nation. if this happens in Indonesia, NOBODY CARES.
Heck, Cinta Laura said the dumbest thing on earth and everyone still thinks she's one hot stuff.
(love you, cinta, just using your example as a comparison)

Come back Jay Park, come back as the cool Park Jaebeom.
2PM is no longer 2PM without you.
You are the one and only leader.
Come back, please.
Dont rip Hottests' hearts apart like this.

ps: Koreans, i am not offending you. even up till now, i will not generalize you, categorize you as ill-hearted nation. please dont get me wrong.
i am just stating my views about the silly netizens who simply exagerrate things withouht thinking. peace.

Ahahahahahah! *proud of myself..*
fret not, arlha's blog is totally FREE of korean things now!! muahahaha. i have found a solution for that, except for funny gifs that i want to share, this blog is free from korean random lusting that i myself find it embarrasing if i read it again.

i should be studying now. ive got thermal, DC and all those sickening physics subject but, well...
i want to blog a bit before i go on hiatus. =(

currently, i need to stop this (bad) habit of buying....

BOOKS!

not just usual books, recently i really like buying cute note-books. like this.


i like note books that have hardcovers..
a little bit thick, but has a "classic" feel on the book. hahaha. i dont really like striking/fancy books just a cool, simple one will do.

i spent quite a proportion of my pocket money for this. some books are not even fully used yet, i keep buying it -.-

Those books have many purposes. if you see the one above the brown-coloured book, i have it since primary, it is sort of my "Life". i snatched that book from my sister, i think it was her bday present. ahahaha.
That book contains all the information about my life. its like another part of me. if you want to peek... it has


notes from friends...


mementos like this...

or interesting newspaper articles.


currently im writing a lot on the brown coloured book. i have been writing it since sec 4?

contains things like this


and many other things.

The blue book is my "lyric book" hehehe.
i wrote my fave lyric song there.

The green book is my english vocab book, i bought it for the sake of GP. Purely. -.-

The big book with huge kpop photos all over it is my newspaper journal for GP (again!)
my teacher inspected it once and flipped on the page whereby it has a humongous wonder girls poster on it. ahahahahahahaaa..
she's not complaining though.

I have many interesting things n my books, quotes, articles, pictures, my thoughts, my wish, all the lusting, sadness and happiness. i have it there.
i hope to record down more important moments in my life as i am scared to forget it.

how about you?
do you keep tracks of it as well?

how can there be....

a puppy as cute as this?!?!!!!!!?????????????????????????




i really want a puppy actually, but i kind of lazy to clean the mess and everything.
moreover it seems that puppy is harder to raise rather than a baby.
i mean baby grows up and as times goes by it can take care of itself but im not sure about puppies...

People say, it is normal for a girl to have girl-crush. (-__-)
is it??
I dont really think it's crush actually,, its just some kind of admiration, wish that you can be that girl.

Just because i am a soshi/wg/kara/2ne1 fangirl doesnt mean im not normal.
i still like guys.

Anyway, of course as a girl, there's always jealousy (?) not sure whether jealousy is an appropriate word..
Sometimes i really adore people who have personality/special character.






The Leader


I envy this kind of people. It's cool if girls have leadership and have the ability to control the crowd. This must be an innate nature or else, you can end up like this person -insertyournamehere- who shows superiority all around without having leadership characteristic at all.

The Leader is charismatic, patient and listens to the crowd well. Strangely, surrounding friends seem to listen to her well. She knows how to handle difficult situation.

Leader exists usually in a gang of girls, you know, usually there's always one who leads them all, right?

The Attitude/The Tomboy

*ha, CL looks like she wants to beat someone*

They stand out the most. Hoho, some girls really look cool with tomboy style and pull off the look really well, but some people look weird with this style.
But actually, tomboys are really caring friend.

I dont really particularly remember whether i have a super tomboy girl-friend who looks like a guy *thinks hard* But tomboys have special charms...

The Mum

The mums are soft and very caring. The kind that guys wish to marry. Hahaha.
One example would be my classmate, idk why, but her actions are really pleasant to see, even her voice sounds very feminine and nice to listen too.

The Princess
This can be a positive trait or it can be really bad too~
The princesses dresses/make up/shop well but sometimes they dont really think much about others as they only think for themselves.
They might say things that hurt others without realising it.

I personally dont really prefer a character like this but...they still exist.
Some princesses, again, like Leaders are natural-born and some are just plain "act-princess"

The Joker

*rofl taeyeon what are you doing*

Among all kind of girls, i envy the joker the MOST. it is natural if a girl is pretty, have nice voice, talented and all, but if a girl is pretty yet witty??
I envy them!

why?
because they are the mood-makers in the group and they bring joy to their friends.
Every year i pray to be a funnier person because i want my friends and those around me to be happier.

One more thing, actually i really envy short/petite/small girls.
i know short girls usually complains they look like a kid, but i think it's cute.
And guys usually like this kind of girls too, because guys have the characteristic to "protect" and small girls look so fragile. :D

But get real. Since we are born with this kind of face/ attitude/ body, let's stop complaining and starts doing something to make ourselves more attractive.

According to GD's lyric, the way for fame:

1) Put on something nice. (Dress better)
2) Dont be nervous.
3) Just be yourselves.


Girls, lets try and make ourselves more presentable in case guys check us out like this.

gifs @ soompi.com

uh dancers go and hide behind a rock or something.
i always envy them and their nice bodies.
they can move and they make me wanna go weep and re-plan my diet + gym schedule.